Kurt Carson Bishop

In Loving Memory of Kurt Bishop

August 15, 1986-June 30, 2007

 

A Special Angel

There’s a special angel in heaven

That is a part of me

It is not where I wanted him

But where God wanted him to be

He was here but just a moment

Like a night time shooting star

And though he is in heaven

He isn’t very far

He touched the heart of many

Like only an angel can do

I would’ve held him more often

If the end I only knew

So I send this special message

To the heavens up above

Please take care of my angel

And send him all my love.

 

Kurt when a wife loses her husband she is called a widow. When a husband loses his wife he is called a widower. When a child loses their parents they are called orphans. When a parent loses a child they aren't called anything. Thats because the pain is so bad they're are NO words to express it. We love you sweet angel. I know we will see you again. I wish for Christmas I could see that beautiful smile one more time and give you a big hug and kiss. Even in a dream. That is the only thing I truly want. I love you Kurt with all my heart and soul. You are my "Free Bird"

I've been thinking alot about all the wonderful Christmas's we shared and they always bring a smile to my face. Then I think of you not being here this Christmas and it just kills me. The pain just never goes away. I feel like a knife is stuck in my heart. One of my favorite memories Christmas 1991. You were 5 and Rusty was 8. Dad was at work and you guys were sleeping with me. We were telling stories and you and Rusty heard Santa's reindeer on the house. You both were so excited because we I them also. We listened so intensely. We heard the bells and everything. We all pretended to be asleep so Santa would leave you toys. You were both so cute. Dad and I have enjoyed being with you and Rusty so much. You were such a joy! We love you sweetie and miss you more than words could ever express. All my love forever. Mom 

i heard this song the other day on Oprah called ordinary day by nick lachey and from the first verse i thought about you! here it is..

 

i wish i could tell you the things i never got the chance to wish i was with you now to see you smile again i wish we had more time the time goes by so fast a moment comes and then the moment passes by in the blink of an eye and if i had one

wish i wouldnt wish for money i wouldnt ask for fame i wouldnt ask for the power to make this world change if i could have one thing that one that i would choose is one more ordinary day with you..with you...i wish i could see you be there where my arms could reach u i wish i could let u know how much u touched my life maybe a lil time is all the time we get words we long to say is the words that go unsaid u cant go back again but if i had one wish i wouldnt ask for money i wouldnt ask for fame i wouldnt ask for the power to make this world change no if i could have one thing that one thing i would choose is one more ordinary day just one more ordinary day with you!!

 

I love you more than words can describe and i wish i could have that ONE ordinary day with you! where we sit in your room and you play the guitar on the couch and sing to me! god what i wouldnt give! i love you and miss you!!

Today was our 1st Thanksgiving without you Kurt and it was so hard. We always had such a wonderful family Thanksgiving in the past but we just couldn't do it this year. It was just to painful. We are all hurting so much. You are loved by so many people. Everyone misses you so much! My heart is broken. You would have been proud of us. We went to the Civic Center with Deb and helped feed the poor.It was where we needed to be. We don't need anything but you and thats not possible so it was good to help those who are in need. Kurt I love you and I miss you. Please watch over your Dad, brother and sister and nieces. They are in alot of pain. Davis too and your Paw Paw. He tries to put on a brave face but I think he is in denial. He wanted to be sure that if anything happens to him that all his tools are yours. Its so sad. Anyway sweatheart I love you with all my heart. Love always and forever Mom.

Kurt I love you so much. My heart aches at the pain of not seeing you. For the longest I pretended you were at work and would be home soon. Its getting harder to pretend that anymore. Not being able to touch you or hug you or give you a kiss on the cheek is devasting. I, like Heather, have recordings of you wake boarding, and being silly doing different things and it helps to hear your voice. Then the pain of not sharing those future times with you brings back the pain. A motor cycle just like yours passed me Saturday and I could have sworn it was you going home. They had a light green jacket like you wore on your sking trip and the same helmet. I just lost it. When I got home your helmets were moved around. The one you wore all the time was turned completely on its side in the opposite direction. No one had been home all day so I think it was you letting me know you were with me. Oh well I love you sweetie and miss you terribly. All my love always Mom

Hey boy!!! Just thinking about you today. It is heart breaking to read your mom and sisters candles on here. You are so loved...Everyone misses you