Kurt Carson Bishop

Hey man, guess I'm late on all of this but I know you won't mind, guess I couldn't really find the words but here it goes anyway.........

 

Well there's not a day that has gone by since you went home that I havn't thought of you and your family. My memories of you are all around me, from when I'm driving my Jeep, to when I'm watching a football game or playing songs on my guitar and even going to church. You are all around me. We had alot of fun through the years and some of the best memories of us are from our younger years. Like when we where in middle school and I stayed at your house the whole spring break and we would go do flips off your trampoline into your swimming pool and stay up all night or went we where in high school and we accidently bought the same kind of shoes two times in a row and everybody though we were copying each other, that was funny. We had a blast, I wish we could go back. But I know we can't and I miss ya and I'll always remember ya, especially went I'm riding in my jeep, with the top down, jammin to Skynyrd and wishin' you could be there with me, but I know in my heart you are. So I love ya man! 

Hi sweetie!  Again I can't explain how much we all miss you!  Some days it's easier but there are more days filled with pain!  I don't think I can explain the pain we all feel without you being here especially for the holidays!  I agree with everything Dusty has said to and about you!  I feel like I have lost a brother!  We go by and talk to your family as much as we can but I'm sure you see that from heaven and it puts that amazing smile on your face!  I just wanted to say hi and I miss you terribly!  Just look over all of us and keep us safe b/c I know how you are you would never let anything bad happen to anyone that you love!  Again I miss & love you so much!

Hey hun, i was just thinkin bout you and wanted to tell ya that i love you and miss you! i dont think i could say that enough! I got my tattoo! its not quite finished yet. i know u love those nautical stars lol! so i got 4 nautical stars for the 4 letters in your first name and 6 negative space stars for the 6 letters of your last namE! with some gray wash behind it! i love it! i think bout you everytime i look at it! this is my all time favorite tattoo!! it will be colored in red and i got to think of some cute color for the negative space stars! my gah i  wish i could just touch your face one more time!! i still have 2 voicemails from like february just so i can hear your voice. puts me in a better mood! anyways! i love you and miss you kurt and you will forever be in my heart! no one could ever and will never take your place!! MWAH!

Well man, what can I say...... I still miss u so much man! I still wake up everyday wondering why, why did u have to leave? Honestly Kurt you were my BEST FRIEND, you were everything I had, the only person I truely looked at as a brother and a friend. You had my back NO MATTER WHAT! Ever since I moved to Atlanta man it's been so hard. First you leave this world then a bunch of other stuff with my family is going on. Crazy stuff man. Then in the midst of all that I am trying to stay focused and do good in school and do good at my new job and yet I still seem to get depressed when I think of you. I just can seem to come to grips with reality. I just cant do it. I just dont see how or why? Of course its not my place to get those answers, its only God's place to know those answers. I know eventually one day that I will see you and be chillin with you again but man until that day comes I think of you everyday and the pain is still as real as its ever been! I am just thankful that you came to my aparment the weekend before your accident and I am super glad you got to stay and we could chill and talk and catch up on some stuff man. I think in a weird way that was God's way of letting us hang out together one more time. Because God knew I would be busy living down here trying to better myself and he knew when he was going to take you away. I just thank God so much for that. Oh! I almost forgot too man, I finally have the design and the drawing done for the tattoo I am getting for u! It's gunna be so sick and your gunna love it. I have spent the past couple of months designing and drawing to figure out the PERFECT tattoo piece in memory of u man. People ask me why am I getting that and stuff and for someone who wasnt even related to me. You know what I say to those people? HE WAS MY BROTHER! Maybe not my biological brother but damn it Kurt you were the closest I will ever get to having a true brother. Also, man you remember all those times we use to talk about me starting my own clothing company and stuff? Well dont you worry about that either man, I have the most PERFECT name and logo for it and I know your gunna love it as well! I know everyone is gunna love the stuff I make and I will be sure to let everyone know my number one inspiration behind it all is you. I truely dont think anyone in this world or in this lifetime will ever realize exactly how much u impacted my life. Before I met you man I was afraid of getting a tattoo, I was afraid of doing extreme sports like motocross, snowboarding, wakeboarding, all kinds of crazy stuff YOU got me into! You are the reason I am who I am today. I love tattoos and they're one of my biggest passions man. The only thing that hurts about tattooing is knowing your not gunna be my first customer when I start tattooing! It hurts so bad because we always talked about me tattooing you and you were the only person I knew crazy enough to let me tattoo them. Actually it isnt that your crazy its just the simple fact that you had faith in me and you trusted me and you know I wouldnt mess you up. I know it's been a little while since I have gotten on here and written you man and I am so sorry for that. I never want you or any of your family to think I have forgot about you or them. I could never forget any of yall and exspecially you! You will always be in my heart man, please I pray that you always watch over me and bless me Kurt, make sure you put in a good word to God for me so I'll get some good blessings from him too! Haha, jk. Love you bro!

Last Night I had a dream...it was so real...Kurt was in it and it was after the accident and he had been allowed to come back to earth and tell everyone about heaven and how great it was and he was to bring his "lost" friends and family to christ in his journey while he was here. Kurt spent most the the time with his close family and friends Everyone was just cutting up like we were all kids playing hide and seek and all kinds of silly things. Well right before it was time for him to return to the lord Kurt got serious and everyone gathered around to hear what he had to say. He described Heaven as a BEAUTIFUL place full of laughter no one ever had a disagreement. He said that the gates of Heaven were more than words could ever describe. He kept on about his "lost" friends who didnt know christ that he wanted them to go to church and know him like he did now. He wants to spend eternity with all of us so he said its very important that we all know Christ. He brushed his mamas hair back on her shoulder and gave her a kiss on the cheek and said mama keep being strong i love you and i dont like to see you so upset but i understand it. He shook his daddys hand and said its ok to cry but please just know im safe and im looking out for you out there. I know this is a dream but oh my gosh it was so real to me...i woke myself up one time because i thought it was so real and when i went back to sleep i dreamed it again right where i left off...i just wanted to share this with all of you. i think its some sort of message. I hope you all get this same dream because it was so awesome. I wasnt going to even mention it to anyone but it has been on my mind all day so i thought I must be supossed to share it. I hope this helps some of you like it has helped me. I know Kurt and I were no where near close as most of you but we all love Kurt how could you not. Lynna nd Ralph it was so good to see you at the fair. I pray for you all daily...