Kurt Carson Bishop

Well KURT its been almost 3 months now..too long...i hope you had a good 21st Birthday!! Knowing you, you did!! You have been on my mind here lately! Like Dusty said ive gotten alot closer to God too..i drifted far away there for awhile, but with your accident and some other things going on in my life i realized that i cant do anything without God..i wish you were here to make me laugh again, i really need it right now. Things have been rough here lately!I miss everyone hanging out like we all use too..it seems as if everyone is drifting apart instead of together..i dont know whats happening..maybe things will change for the better.i pray that God will bring us all close again.. i know you are watching over us too..We all Miss you very much..i wish you could come see us all for just a minute, i know that would make everyone soo happy! i know you are having a blast up there in heaven!! Keep Smiling Down on Us Kurt! LOVE and MiSS you~

You never said "I'm leaving"
You never said "good-bye"
You were gone before we knew it
And only God knows why
A million times we've needed you,
A million times we've cried.
If love alone could've saved you,
you never would have died.
In life we loved you dearly,
in death we love you still.
In our hearts you hold a place,
No one else will ever fill.
It broke our hearts to lose you,
but you didn't go alone.
Part of us went with you;
the day God took you home

I lOve You anD Miss YOu so MucH Kurt, I cRieD a Lil TOdaY CauSE evErYtiME I saW SomeTHIng It rEmIndEd mE of YOu. It Was a lIl fUnny tHE OTheR dAY Cause I waS drIVIn HOme aND I was LisTenIN tO a SONg CALleD Bitter End tHat RemINds me of U aND A cRotCh rockEt WaS BEsIDe ME the wHOle tIMe. I knEW tHAt wAs A SiGn. I MIsS YOu An UnBelIEveaBlE aMOUNt. ITs jUSt NOt tHE saME! iM goIn tO BiKe wEEk IN PCb TOmOrrOW so WATCh over Us. I wIll Be thINkIN bouT u cause U know how BaD I waNTEd u tO go! YOu WErE my heRO anD wILl REmaIN mY HerO! nO ONe WILL eveR UNderSTAnD hoW Bad i MisS YOu aND lOVe You! Just CoNtInue WaTChIN over Me aND eVeRYOnE eLSe! I love YOU KurT caRsON!

HappY 21sT BirThdaY My KurT!! i love YOu!! 

Well like everyone else is saying. It's already been a month. The hardest month I have ever had to cope with in my life. Kurt, you knew me better than anyone I have ever been friends with. You were always there for me and I miss you so damn much man. There's not a day that goes by that I still don't cry. I have never in my life had my heart broken, never thought it would happen, but now instead of just being broken my heart is crushed. You were everything to me man. I don't think you or anyone else will ever realize how much of an inspiration and a role model you were to me. I tried to live life to the fullest while you did. I tried to not care what the world thought of me when you could care less. I tried not to worry about the little things in life and you don't even know what the word "worry" means. Haha, there's times through the day that I put in one of my Breaking Benjamin CDs and all I think about is you. You were the one who got me to listening to them and you know better than anyone they are my favorite band. Everytime I hear one of their songs I start to smile and think of the good times we had, then before I know it I am crying again thinking why it had to be you that left this world? Why did it have to be my best friend? Why did it have to be the one person I could truely be myself and not have to worry about what you thought because you were my true friend? Why? That's the question on everyone's mind right now. Of all people in the world this could have happend to, it had to be you. I know God works in mysterious ways and I know everything happens for a reason but I can not begin to understand God's reason for taking you from everyone who loved you. I know it's not my place to understand but just have faith, but when you lose the one person you truely looked up to it's hard to not wonder why. Kurt, I haven't cried over anything, ANYTHING, in the past 3 years. Out of all the broken bones, cuts, and scares I never cried once. But for the past month I have cried enough to fill those 3 years and many more. I know I sound like a baby right now but I can't help it. There's not many people in the world I trust and much less love with all my heart, but Kurt you were one of the few. I remember the last time I saw you and got to hang out with you. We went on that long ride from Rome to my apt. in Atlanta. It was so much fun and so peaceful. We had an awesome talk that night you spent the night with me at my place and if I had known that would be the last time I would ever get to see you I would have told you how much I loved you and how much you mean to me. I remember my first tattoo I got you were so psyched about it. From the time you got your first tattoo I wanted one. Hell we were almost there with our full sleeves. Haha, I know your mom and mine would kill us but after losing you I realize life is too short to care what anyone thinks and you should enjoy what life you have. So man you know I'm gunna go all the way with full sleeves on both arms (as soon as I get the money) haha. Oh and don't worry man I saved my whole left side just for you. I have the perfect design that I am still working on drawing but after I get the money and time to do it, it will be one of the most amazing tattoos you will ever see. My whole side is dedicated to you bro. and I can't wait for you to see it. I know you're gunna be smiling down from heaven watching me get it but when it's done, it will be awesome. All I want in life right now is to see you man. I just want to see you one more time and tell you how much you mean to me and how much I miss you. You are my brother and don't you or anyone else ever forget that. I will drop by some time soon to write you something else man, don't worry I will NEVER forget about you. NEVER! Everyday I think of you and pray that you watch over me through out the day. I do have you to thank though for one thing, since you have passed and are no longer with us I have gotten closer to God and started praying more and believing more. I have you to thank for that. There's so much to say but so little time. I talk to you everynight and everyday but it feels good to write to you. You are an amazing person and there will forever be a piece of my heart missing until I get to see you again in heaven one day. I love you man and I pray you watch over me and keep me out of trouble. I'll talk to you later bro. I love ya man and will forever miss you.

Well, its been a month and I have read all the sweet things people had to say about you and I have just thought and thought about how you touched so many people. You had so many friends. At the funeral home, we stood in line over 2 hours. There were so many people whose life you had touched and I know that makes your family proud. Just sitting here, I thought about the first real memory I have of you and it was at your birthday party many years ago. That was the first time and last time I had ever been around a pinata...I remember J.R. Green was one of the attendants because he had gone to school with leah. Then that time you came up to mama and daddys and got that sweet lil brown lab i had...and then at the hospital in November when my brother in law had a minor accident and you just came up and hugged me and that sweet lil grin that just made you who you are. I just saw your family in Florida, they sat right beside me, I just kept lookin around waiting for you to pop around the corner and say "HEY!" I miss you and I never really saw you that much but lordy when I did...it was always such a pleasure. I know that your family misses you more than they ever imagined they would! You had such an impact on the lives that you touched. I am just glad to say that you touched mine more than your family will ever know. I just wanted you to know that it was more that a pleasure to have known you in this lifetime, but ill see you on the other side...

 

until we meet again,

Kayla Williams Wright