Kurt Carson Bishop

I LOVE YOU KURT CARSON!

 

 

 

You know with each day that passes by, I pray to god I'll never forget who you are.
You mean everything to me.
I love you

Ooooh Ooooh
Ooh I pray

You were in my dream
Before I even knew that there was a you and me,
Now I can't wait to see your smile,
When I wake up each day,
It makes it worth while
With the kinda love you plant inside,
Specially with a heart so empty as mine.
All your soft tenderness is the one thing that I don't wanna miss.

[Chorus:]
I pray,
When it's time for me to say goodbye
I'll never forget looking in your eyes,
I pray,
That I feel your touch
And that God doesn't forget our love,
I pray,
When I close my eyes,
I can still see visions of you on my mind.
I pray,
That I see you in another life,
I pray that you still by my side.
Oh I pray.

Everything that you give to me,
Only comes in a fantasy,
It seems like life goes by so fast,
But in this time I wanna make it last. (I pray)
I hate that we live to die,
But only God knows why (I pray)
We all have a purpose,
And to see you again it'll be worth it.

[Chorus]

[Slow rap:]
I wish that I could stop time,
I wish that I could rewind,
To the very begining of every second of my life.
To ask God on my hands and knees,
To never let me forget all my special memories.
See I'm only promised today,
And if it's my time to go,
I don't want the love of my life to ever fade away,
So one last time
Let me open my eyes.
To see what my life used to be like.
Oh God.

HAPPY NEW YEAR KURT! U know that i celebrated it with u! I drank one for ya!! i just sat there and cried for a couple of minutes cause i know that this new year is goin to be so rough without you! I found a new song its called goodbye my lover goodbye my friend. i listened to it last nite and just thought about you! I LOVE YOU SO MUCH!! watch over us! I MISS YOU

Kurt, I read everything that has been left for you everyday!  And I agree I would give my life for yours in a heatbeat!  I know you are not my true brother but you were like my other brother by a family I love dearly!  We miss you so much!  It will never get easier losing you!  You are an amazing person! Look over us all at this time of year b/c I know you are watching over us...it's just hard not being able to see that smile!  I know you don't want us to be sad but again it's hard!  You were always there for Dusty and if you knew something was wrong with me you were there side by side!  I showed Lynn and Ralph the book i made for Dusty and they loved it!  I plan on making one for them too when I can!  You know that!  I don't think sometimes we will get over the lose of you!  We love you so much! I pray everyday that everything will get easier but each day I wake up with you still not here!  Just look over and protect us!  We will see you again one day soon!  Till then my other brother I love you and keep making those bikes and keeping on keeping on that track of teachin us all how to play the guitar like you!  I love you....see you soon! Love, Shannon (your other sister frome another mother)

Little Brother,

As I sit here and try to prepare myself mentally for the holidays I just cry.  I think about how you loved the family all getting together and how we would tell stories and laugh.  I just never thought we would be doing this without you.  I am at a loss for words when it comes to describing the pain.  I feel so numb, so lost.  I look around and keep waiting for you to come around the corner or come bouncing in the door.  I look at pictures and am still in disbelief.  I look at Mom and Ralph and see the constant pain in their eyes.  They are so lost without you.  The pain we all feel is nothing compared to the pain they suffer on a constant basis.  Mom and Ralph have always loved us more than anything.  They have always been there for us and loved us unconditionally.  I never knew that kind of love until I had children of my own.  A parent would die without question for their children.  They would give their life for us and would have given their life for yours that day.  I would have given mine for yours in a heart beat.  Since you and Rusty were little I have loved you both as a sister but also as a second Mom.  I treated you both like my babies and love you both more than you could even imagine.  I hope you always knew that.  I loved you for you.  I loved that that you always smiled, that you loved your family and friends unconditionally, that you lived every day to the fullest, that when you walked in a room it got brighter as did everyone sitting there, that you always made me smile, that you always made light of the serious situations, that you could do anything you put your mind to, that you were precious, that you were the best little brother, that you kept us on the edge of our seats, that you were beautiful on the inside and on the outside, that you were simple in your wants, that you were funny, that you took after Ralph in your story telling, that you took after Mom in your people skills , that you were just simply "wonderful"!!  The other night we were getting ready to go eat at our usual family friday restaurant and Sophie came to me and said "Mommy Kurty is going tonight".  It caught me off guard and I replied, "no baby he won't be able to go tonight."  She said with such certainty, "yes Mommy he is going to eat with us tonight."  Then she said, "Mommy you are sad, you just want Kurty to open his eyes again don't you."  Maybe you did go, maybe you were there with us.  I love you with all my heart to my dying day!!!  Please don't ever forget all the love that remains for you here on this earth.  Love Always, you big sister, Misty

Kurt, Its so hard to believe that its been 5 months today. It was weird cause i didnt even think bout it but me and your mama went and ate on ur 5 month anniversary. very strange!! I love your mama and shes the sweetest woman! keep sending her those signs! it helps her out!! We went and seen your brick and im goin tomorrow to see the crash site. I havent been yet and its been 5 months. It should be a lil easier to get through the days since its been so long but for some reason its gettin harder. i just think bout how im going to see you one sweet day and that makes me feel a lil better. Thanks for that dream the other nite! i know you were there! Just keep lookin after your family and dont quit sending those signs! I love you and miss you so much!! Not a day goes by that i dont think of yoU!